Domestic Geek

If you read here regularly, you know I like to participate in the Ten on Tuesday meme. This one this week threw me.

The topic was 10 Occupations You Wanted to Be When You Were Young. Honestly, I can't remember. How sad is that? I don't remember ever wanting to be anything. I know little kids say they want to be firemen, a nurse or superheros or something, but I don't remember if I wanted to be anything. I went through my whole life just kind of expecting that I'd be a mom. Even while studying music, I never saw myself as a musician. I didn't even think about going to college until I was in my senior year in high school and figured keeping on with school was better than getting a job. I only studied to be a teacher because I didn't know what else to do. I figured I'd meet someone in college and get married and that would be that. Well, we all know that didn't happen. So there I was, out of school, no passion for a career I had chosen and no prospects of becoming a mom. As I kept meandering through life, just getting by, I came to the realization that I didn't really want to be a mother, either.

It's that lack of passion for anything that has had me so lost, angry, confused. When faced with the question, "What would you do with your life if money was no object?," I have no answer. Sure, I have some hobbies I enjoy, but no real goals. Even now, being 40, I still don't know what I want to be. That's sad, isn't it?

I joined a cool little site the other day called whogets.com. It's a free online sweepstakes game show — absolutely no catches and they promise never to spam you.

After becoming a member, you join contests for a specific prizes ranging in value from $10 – $600. At the end of the semifinal period where any member can join the contest, seven finalists are randomly chosen and the WhoGets community gets to vote for the winner. Some of these prizes are nothing to sneeze at, either. An online friend of mine won a Palm Z22 Handheld yesterday. They have some pretty well-known sponsors for the prizes, too. I'm hoping to get into the final round for a Grind & Brew coffeemaker since our grinder is on the verge of dying.

Anyway, go sign up. You might just win something.

So, I've been banned from surfing the Internet from my PCs indefinitely. The firewall that Marcus bought yesterday is acting up (so if you can't get to my site, you'll know it froze up again). While he's waiting for his new one to get here, I'm more or less grounded. *sigh* I've never been a zombie before. That so totally sucked. I miss surfing in bed, though. I wish I had a Macbook.

My gums are quite sore today. I keep playing with them with my tongue and now I've gotten them all irritated. I've been taking the antibiotics, though, so hopefully no infections here! I gave in after reading the pamphlet that the dentist sent home that said he only prescribes antibiotics if he really feels the patient (that's me!) needed them. Better safe than sorry, I guess. I've had infected gums and they are no fun whatsoever.

I had thoughts of going back to pizza delivery today. It didn't take long to talk myself out of that.

I just got finished watching Little Miss Sunshine. I feel like I missed something. I read all these reviews talking about how good a movie it was and was really looking forward to seeing it. I somehow feel cheated. The whole thing just left me feeling sad.

Maybe it's because when I watch a movie that's supposed to be a comedy, I want to laugh and feel good. This movie just mirrored how sad and pathetic most dysfunctional families are. There really was no happy ending.

EDIT: OK, Marcus informed me that it was not supposed to be a comedy. My mistake. It's still classified as comedy over at IMDb, but there was definitely nothing comical about that.

Well, I guess I didn't want to go badly enough or something. I found out on the radio at work first thing this morning that I did not win tickets for this weekend's Police show. Boooooooo!